Below are the most recent 18 friends' journal entries.

Friday, December 18th, 2009
thebrownbook	2:38p	HELLO SUNSHINE. :)   B offered to: 1) Configure 2) Jailbreak 3) Prepare ringtones for my phone. But in the end, only came up with a iUturn. Description for iUturn: Based on the assumption that all GPS are of 20% accuracy, the iUturn is a add-on service to the BLGPS (which is the 'tell you to turn left, you better turn right' GPS). It comforts you when you lose your way with the extremely soothing 'Never mind, got u turn in front!'. And brings you to the classiest toilets ever (think Mount Faber) when all you need, is a hawker centre toilet. In fine print at the end - Please ensure full tank petrol before usage. At the end of the night and exciting morning, I only have 2 new ringtones, and still quite clueless how to do a ringtone. Awesome help, ingenious ideas, go where find?! Only can find with B Lim. (Comment on this)
Thursday, December 17th, 2009
hellostrangeerr	11:59a	Love. "The love of a family is life's greatest blessing" . . . Mum: "If everyday goes smoothly, you will never learn from all the obstacles and no improvement will be made." Meimei: "Jiejie, I will always love you and stand by your side." n' she hugged me for a minute after saying this. I'm still blessed, no? (: Current Mood: calm (Comment on this)
thebrownbook	4:16a	Beautifully broken It seems like yesterday that my world fell from the sky It seems like yesterday I didnt know how hard I could cry It feels like tomorrow I may not get by But I will try I will try wipe the tears from my eyes (Comment on this)
thebrownbook	4:04a	B I think it took me an entire month to get past the hurt and shock, and to be completely at this state of zen where nothing really bothers me anymore. I went from the pit low state of hasty drinking, sudden outbursts in crying, insomnia, to the transition point where the crying stopped, I stopped listening to music, I stopped going places, and making myself hate things that would remind me of pain, and finally went on to break free of all the torture. I finally began to live life normally again. But all it takes, is just one strike and I'm down. I'm not upset anymore, nor am I'm not wishing for the better anymore. I just want things to be normal. I just want us to be normal. Although yes, I know the story behind this. But I don't like losing people in my life and I just want to be normal. I tried being normal but you gave me questions. Now, I'm reminded of the painful month - how I dreaded even the entire neighbourhood, how dark everything felt, how dark everybody seemed to me, and nothing ever felt sincere to me anymore. I'm sick of all the insincerity and I just want normalty. Can? Can it be done? Apparently not. We had a first tonight, and went -ahem- style. But surprisingly, this liqueur de pomme verte tasted pretty decent. The club was disgusting. It was like a stampede in there and puke everywhere. Literally. Oh my goodness, anger just speaking of it. So we left, and settled for bah kut teh. And oh, I really hate K. Rotten nut that one. I swear. iPhone tomorrow! Cheap cheap! (7 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, December 16th, 2009
thebrownbook	1:14p	You think I stupid It took me a while, but I'm back on track. There are things that always seem really pretty on the outside, but rotten on the inside. I wish I knew better; those were terrible times. Must not fall again. (Comment on this)
thebrownbook	12:39p	"Lil girl you are the best. Thanks for helping me :) " (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Tuesday, December 15th, 2009
thebrownbook	7:19p	Much as I hate having to come to terms that the property agents are here for a reason, at least these two are damn good looking. HA. (Comment on this)
Monday, December 14th, 2009
thebrownbook	11:39p	day nine Ann Siang Hill escapade with the only two people in the world who don't know how to use their own phones. :) F took many pretty pictures already, and I particularly like this one best. Smith Lake Field Station, was it? There's something about this picture that I like. I'm bad at describing pictures, but I really like this one... something about it looks very serene. The human mind, I've come to realise, works in this mysteriously amazing way. It has this automatic shelving system... and shuts away the painful memories into this dark corner. Sometimes, these things don't return. Other times, you get reminded, but you take a while to remember what it meant back then. So then it stings a little... but because it got shelved away for too long and too far into the corner, it doesn't linger. And it becomes this bittersweet tinge. Unless, of course, it was some awfully dark memory..... then that's another story for another day. But for me, most of the chapters that get shelved away end up becoming this tingling bittersweetness. Sometimes I smile at the recollections, sometimes I chuck it back into the corner. Either way, I somehow always wish I didn't have to go through all that. I think I'm quite the runner too, unfortunately. Current Mood: at peace (Comment on this)
thebrownbook	4:00a	"I love you, you know that? I love who you are. I don't know how you got there, but I'm glad you did." Brooke Davis, OTH7 I need a lot of strength. (Comment on this)
thebrownbook	3:56a	some roads lead nowhere Another sign that our country is too fast paced: Even our houseflies fly faster than those in Melbourne. Ys was telling me ealier, that houseflies down under fly so slowly that you can literally smack them to death. (Comment on this)
Sunday, December 13th, 2009
hellostrangeerr	12:00p	In life and in death Current Mood: tired Current Music: Jay - 半島鐵盒 (Comment on this)
thebrownbook	6:54a	I had an extremely eventful Friday and Saturday and now, I'm mad exhausted. Like extremely exhausted but I'm more hungry than sleepy. So... But anyhow, I had fun! On a lighter note, I got R's guitar and I'm supposed to play her a song when she gets back in 2 weeks' time. Stressed much! But I am so gonna do it. Watch me! Ha! And and and! I cut my fringe already so these pictures are considered outdated! Wheeeeeee. F's having a starry time in Sydney and I can't wait to see the pictures of the stars! (Comment on this)
Friday, December 11th, 2009
thebrownbook	3:17a	I have :- been to Ikea with S and surprisingly couldn't finish my food. been to YS' place and caught Orphan with them and C was obviously the most disturbed (I KNOW YOU WERE THE MOST DISTURBED). But I like Maxine many many! had Mac breakfast after a long hiatus with W. finished the long Moonlight Resonance and like it a lot. started on the project with B and I'm exciteddddd gone to run again! wasted my run by having supper with C and Y. -.- Anyhow, I need to stop heading out and start giving my pockets a rest... and start unloading the huge stack of unread TIME on my desk... How cute is this! Current Mood: good Current Music: Angel - Sarah McLachlan (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Thursday, December 10th, 2009
thebrownbook	2:11p	day five Based on today's exchange rate, (notwithstanding the bank's rate come January on my credit card statement..) after my heart broke upon deciding not to get the photobook, after applying coupon code, frequent shopper points (I'm even a frequent shopper there!), after including shipping, I will be charging SGD 108.38 to my bill just for SPEED's concert DVD which will only be released on Dec31 2009. I.HAVE.NEVER.(i think)SPENT.SO.MUCH.ON.A.DVD.IN.MY.LIFE. Ouch much? WHY IS THE SHIPPING SO BLOODY EX?! WHO WANTS TO BUY ME CHRISTMAS PRESENT?! GET ME THE PHOTOBOOK PLEASE! http://www.cdjapan.co.jp/detailview.html?KEY=NEOBK-649402 T.I.A! (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, December 9th, 2009
thebrownbook	9:14p	I am fine with you doing whatever you wish to do. But I'm not fine with excuses. (Comment on this)
Tuesday, December 8th, 2009
hellostrangeerr	11:24p	Zombieland Current Mood: loved (2 Comments |Comment on this)
thebrownbook	1:08a	day two I won at texas holdem, but bled from within at mahjong. -.- It was a great night still, and I finally, finally understood the game a little. Hahaha. Caught Couple Retreat with C, Y and Y just now and I think I might just avoid hub for a bit now. haha. Anyway the show was good, really funny. But the hub aircon free! Freezing in there! Tryin' to keep the light on. (Comment on this)
Sunday, December 6th, 2009
thebrownbook	6:44a	day zero Wednesday was butter with E and C (who left us even before he entered but sorry about the carpark charges! hahaha). So we were left with her cousin and friends. The cabbie that took us home kinda scared me a little, and half the time I was trying not to fall asleep and putting up a I'm-not-high-I'm-extremely-sober-so-don't-try-anything-funny front. Thank goodness we got home safe. And I am officially scared of whisky now. Thursday was spent with love and his friends at Changi V. Love and I drove literally from one end of the island to the other; west to east! The drive nearly drove us crazy, especially the tormenting long road after exiting the expressway. We had a spread... and although the crabs weren't very huge and kinda expensive, it was mad fresh and although I never really liked mantous, I thought their mantou was damn cute! They're so tiny! We took forever to think of after dinner plans, but didn't end up with any. So we took a little walk in T3, and the transit hotel there has one of the prettiest toilets I've ever seen. Friday was spent with love. He did his last minute shopping and had our teppanyaki fix. After we got back, he was so sleepy, we didn't manage to finish watching American Pie7 and went straight to bed. But we woke up a while later cuz the silly boy refused to turn off the ceiling fan (even with aircon on) when his tummy was already feeling weird. So we spent the night talking about life when we were little, life during Zhonghua and Nanyang days, and everything else. My personal favourite was how he begged Dos to let him play SF2. /please let me play SF2. HAHA. So cute my boo. He sent me home this morning and I got home feeling queasy and feverish. Must have been the cold walk at night outside. So I had to cancel all plans (Sorry retard! and sorry girls!) and slept the day away literally. Finally got up in the evening feeling extremely hungry, so C's call came just in time! Met C,Y and J up and we went gardens and C had his durian mousse againnnnn. For the 9875375340th time. Although I've heard many snippets of boo's life when he was little a thousand times over, they never fail to amuse me. I like listening to his life; how he grew up and how those girls..... And I'm thankful that although I was easily just one of those girls during his exploration days, I'm still the special one now. I like how we grew up together along these years, how we evolved to what we are today, and where we are now. When we first started out, it was probably just like any other high school puppy love... and even though things were really high and sweet, I guess we never really thought of us in the long term. He was almost Godlike (I know...) to me because I never imagined us to be together, and every morning when I wake, I would wonder if the day before was just a dream. And there, we shared 5 years together. We've had a bumpy 5 years, but we've had more joy than sorrow in my opinion. At the end of the day, he'll always be there at the end of the road, always smiling at me. You're indispensable to me. He's now in Sydney already and I'm still waiting for him to get his calling card. Hurry get it boo! He left them all with me! Now we're just short of PT and MTM and we're all reunited. It's now 643am and I can't get back to sleep again. (7 Comments |Comment on this)